Granite, you've thought your T was angry with you before only to discover that she wasn't, that you had that perception, but it was a misperception. Could that be what is going on now? You do have a tendency to jump to your default emotion that she is angry with you. I know that must be all tied into your history and your problems with being able to trust people.

But you know, you are demonstrating trust with her as you start opening up to her verbally. The two really go hand in hand. That's probably why she wants you to talk to her rather than write to her. Writing is self-protective for you--kind of a barrier you put up that says "I'll only give you this much trust, not all of it"; she wants you to risk trusting her enough pull down that barrier and to speak to her directly. Sounds like the rest of your session you were able to do just that. Good work.