You sound better, OpenEyes. I don't know if there is anything that causes as much trouble in the mind as Anxiety. PTSD, as I understand it, is the ultimate battle with anxiety. But you are a seasoned soldier. Battles make the soldier more experienced, even though you could do without the experience. You probably have to keep on top of your attorney, as suggested above, checking in with him. Some day this legal process with be behind you, and as Faith says, you will go on and it will be the past. For now, it is the present, and has to be slogged through. Keep posting and know others are with you in spirit.