I'm sorry to hear about your friends' betrayal... I understand how hard it is to open up to people, and how devastating it is when they don't help or accept you.

I don't think it's about you, I think it's about them. Some people are just inconsiderate and hurtful friends (or romantic partners) and when given the choice to be with them or alone, I'd say it's healthier for you to be alone.

However, there are other people out there who are genuinely nice and caring (I know, sometimes it seems like they're hiding ). Maybe you're not around these types of people enough to get to know them, or maybe it's harder to approach these people (maybe you don't feel deserving of a higher level of respect)?

These are all just ideas from my experience, so I hope I don't come off as being judgmental of your situation... you've been very brave to open yourself up. I really hope you can somehow use this as a learning experience, rather than let it defeat you. You may be hurt again if you try, but you'll certainly be hurt if you give up.

Hope you feel better soon!
Jessie