still feeling rather depressed. My bf keeps telling me that I can talk, because I am being so quiet. He has worked so much this week and I know he is stressed to the max. We haven't seen much of each other this week, making me feel pressured to talk , but I don't have anything non depressing to say and I know that would be negative for him so I am just being quiet. Ahh so fun.

I haven't really seen any people aside from my bf and kids in almost 3 weeks. This is not good. I have no friends.

My house is a disasters, my ocd clean house is a mess, and that's stressing me out. The only thing that has helped me be able to sit with the akathisia is knitting because my hands are still moving. Today is payday, normally that makes me happy, but not today, all I can think is paying bills, and the bank, and teller, and figuring out numbers, and groceries, and no car, and ugggh

And then there is the kids when the come home from school. Which is actually fine, not too much stress there. Unless they are arguing or begging me to take them places.

Anyone try light therapy? I have no idea how much this costs, but I was thinking it might be a good idea. It I'll be grey skies from now until spring here. Antidepressants have always made me more sick. Really that's too bad.

I don't want to deal with today, I just want to to curl up and disappear . But that's not going to happen