It sounds like you have had some very unfortuante luck with women, speaking as one I would like to say that we are not all like that. I feel the same way you do about people...it seems to me that everyone is for the most part mean...but I have to keep telling myself that is a generalization. There are always exceptions to the rule. There are charming, sensitive, funny, strong women everywhere...and some of us even know how to behave in public and how to treat other people. While my problem with friendships and relationships isn't exactly the same as yours, I don't like to let people get close to me, I can completely understand what you are going through. Don't give up on looking for those connections though, there are people out there who will value you as a person and those who do not aren't worth your time.