I definitely hear you Sophia, I really do and yes it does hurt because it truely is a real struggle and I face that all the time too and I often feel very alone with my struggle.
Hey I am hanging out down there in PTSD forum and I had a really difficult weekend that just wouldn't quit and I really crept into my T's office on Monday and I was so upset and shaking with terrible anxiety, I had to have a pillow on my lap and he had to give me a blanket. I was so bad and truely hate how my PTSD just kicks in and I have been really working hard on it. I really wish others could just step into my body and feel all the pain I go through when I am severely triggered. My arms ache and my whole body is in pain, even my brain hurts and when someone even remotely expresses a thought about just get over it, I get worse, and I also get very angry and frustrated. I don't want this, this isn't fun, this is awful and a real struggle.
So Sophia I just want you to know I really hear you, and no, it is just not fair that other people cannot understand what I deal with every single day. But, to be honest, if I didn't know what it feels like, I am not sure I would really understand it either.
Now the only thing that I can suggest is that hopefully you do have a therapist.
And if you have one than you need to talk to that therapist and have him call your mother in so he can talk to her and set her straight on how she is causing you harm and that she needs to take on a much more supportive role, or at the very least keep her comments to herself.
I did that with my husband and it really helped. Does my husband understand completely, no, but he has a lot more respect for the fact that I am really suffering and some of his remarks and responses to me were very abusive considering what I am trying so hard to overcome.
Oh, and hankster, Abraham Lincoln suffered from dibilitating depression all his life.
And he may have walked miles to school but he probably dragged his brain behind him and suffered in silence more than he should have. Both him and his wife really struggled and it was not pleasant in the end for his wife. So anyone who sings that tune is just a crap head.
And yes, removing yourself from those people is the best prescription for anyone suffering.
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