Today's session was good but left me unsettled. Some of that is due to the EMDR, and some to your not understanding what I was so upset with last week. You thought it was the email situation, but it was really those words: "professional", "client", and "we're not friends". I thought I emailed that to you. I don't know how you could think I was devastated just by the email situation.

It also bothered me that you didn't see those feelings as productive; instead you wanted to apologize for not being able to "bring me back". You said that you tried but I was stuck in that place. I think it's important that I go farther with those feelings. I suppose by doing EMDR about the session and about my first day of kindergarten we're seeing that it's more about my mother than about you. Maybe that's why I'm a little disappointed? I still want it to be about you, and it's hard to let that go.

Thank you for not taking away "holding your hand". It did feel safe and no other way, today. I'm glad you aren't taking things away from me! I need to process the session more. I'm still fighting the feelings about my mother though I told you some more. I want you to replace my mother. I said that though I was embarrassed. I wish you could help me more.