Thanks Are you suffering, I will post more here as I feel people here can understand my situation. I would like to tell you a little about me, if you don't mind..

I always find myself in an uncomfortable situation when I'm in a group of people, whether we are disscussing projects or just party or dinner. It is not that I don't have friends there, just that I feel uncomfortable. I want to talk more like them, but I couldn't because I am scared, which I don't know what the problem is. When in one to one situation I am not scared at all, I could be a positive, happy person who always gives a big smile on the face- as others always describe me. But actually, they don't know me. I often feel sad, which they don't understand.

When I cannot join in the topic in the group, I just listen and when it comes something funny, I just laugh- a fake laugh..you know..I want to escape from this situation so badly, but I know I need to stay there as people might find me weird, or sometimes they will ask me why am I so quite..

I feel like I am so different with them, but I want to be like them so desperately, they can join in the topic anytime, they make friends anytime, and they are not scared to talk, even to someone they not really familiar..but I feel so uneasy..

The worst thing is everyone talks except me..sometimes I would feel like being left out..that's why I always avoid party, gathering if I can.