1. My spine is really messed up for my age-26.
2. My high pain tolerance is a bad thing.
3. The hanging attempt I recently learned I made in 2005 was a real attempt, enough so to damage my neck - it's weird to be told I injured my neck 5-6 years ago and suddenly realize what's missing from my ECT amnesia. Wow I was sick!

I feel strange about that last one. Uneasy, like vomiting or crying or the kind of blankness of staring at a campfire. I wonder what else is vanished from my memory. I wonder what's the use of such experiences... and I cant sleep now.