I am sleeping better with the celexa at night. some nights i have a hard time falling asleep but i am not up all night anymore.

i was still sleeping a lot during the day so the doc upped my dose of the wellbutrin in the morning and that has helped. it is still hard for me to stay out of bed though. some days i just feel so bad that i would rather be asleep than awake, i try to fight it but it is such a strong draw.

i have been really depressed these past few days, more than a week. i've been on a regular schedule with my therapist once a week and our sessions, i feel, are productive, but i just don't feel any better. even more things now set off my anxiety and depression.

i am still doing my best. trying to eat more. working hard to sleep but not too long. trying to read. last tuesday i forced myself to go to one of my support groups. i ended up feeling worse afterwards than i did when i got there.

i can't say i've hit rock bottom because i feel as if i've been scraping the bottom for months now. i feel like i am also approaching rock bottom physically and financially as well. i am completely unmotivated, i work incredibly hard to accomplish little things, and i try to give myself credit for that, but in the meantime the big things are just spiralling out of control.

i've been trying to talk to people but i still feel so empty.

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-- Dave
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