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Originally Posted by peaches100
Hi Granite,
A long time ago, I talked about these memories with my t. But we seemed to get stuck becuase she kept telling me whatever happened wasn't my fault, but i felt like it was. Like i have this sense of badness at my core; I feel like i've done something terrible that I just can't remember. And that i was somehow at fault for whatever happened to my sister too. I don't know if i ever felt the emotions associated with my traumatic memories. I have a problem with my emotions. Either i do not feel them at all, or when i do, they totally overwhelm me. It makes it hard for me to process anything in sessions.
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Granite,
My t has said that perhaps i am not ready to know what a part of me remembers and has to share with me. She said for some people to heal, they need to talk about it and have somebody be a witness to their experience. But perhaps i do not feel safe enough for this to happen. She also said that the part of me that carries the memory must feel very isolated and alone, and she feels sad for that part. I can't really say if she is right or not. All i can say is that i remember pieces that haunt me, but i do not have enough of the other pieces to understand it fully or resolve it.