Hi unhappyguy,
I have to be honest, not very well. I am so tired and worn out and I don't want to talk to my attorney. I should call him but I just don't have it in me today.

To be honest, he is a pro at defending his incompetance. He has a lifetime of being in a field that basically specializes in this area.

I have tried to call around to other attorneys and theres no one to help me. They are all afraid of him or whatever it is, no one will touch it. No matter what I do, it doesn't make any difference.

This is really taking such a toll on me. I am so exhausted in every way imaginable.
I am really mentally and physically exhausted. My brain is just not in a good place today at all.

My therapist tells me that I am really fighting depression and I have tried some medication and it doesn't help. I am oppressed and I know it is causing the depression.

It has been over 4 years now since all the damage occured, over three years of his being on my case. I did work hard at fighting and doing the paper work and he is declining in his capacity, and I just don't know what to do. It just seems like everyone I talk to is defending him somehow and I am just hitting one wall after the other. And maybe he was good in his day, but he is just dragging this out and I honestly can't get through to him. I have tried everything I can think of. And I am really struggling mentally now.

And after this weekend, I am truely exhausted. I can't imagine what the opposing side must think at this point. I actually want to call them and tell them it is not me,
but I can't do that. And they don't care, they are just looking for a way to not have to pay. And I am truely crippled and I can bearly function. I know this is effecting my health, I can feel it. And I am literally exhausted. I actually don't even want to hear his voice.

And I wish my husband would talk to him, but my husband is afraid too. My husband sees me struggling, why is he not getting angry?

And my therapist wants to help too but is this going to give my attorney an excuse for his lack, I can hear it, Oh, shes crazy. I can't win, I don't know what to do.
I am dammed if I do and dammed if I don't.

You mentioned that maybe no one wants to clean up his mess. Did he do something bad? I am not really sure, what is he doing? Is this just a case of a man that is losing his memory and yet he is trying to still function? I don't know, it is really creepy.

And I have a credit card company calling me and they are going to raise the rate of interest and I can't even pay what I have been paying, I am trying. And that credit card company doesn't care, they have a maze they put people through to try to get as much as they can. They called me Sunday too and I just broke, they just didn't get it either.

What do I do now? Go bankrupt? My credit is already suffering. Its everywhere I look, I just cant seem to keep up anymore.

Last night I was shivering all night long. I kept getting up and blowing the hairdryer on my body to try to feel warm, I sleep with the heating pad next to my chest because my chest hurts from the anxiety and stress. I am shaking right now, and its all nerves, it is like I am freezing and can't get warm, but it is not cold.

I am beyond anger, beyond finding strength, I am not doing well at all. I am in pain and void at the same time. And no matter how hard I cry, no one hears, they are all too busy protecting their lies or whatever.

Open Eyes