Thanks Astridetal. That's good news.

I used to cut regularly and these eating habits have kinda replaced that.

I'm not obsessed with my weight and getting skinny, but it does make me happy when I lose weight, even though my karate teacher says I actually need to GAIN weight.

I start starving myself when my self-esteem is incredibly low and I feel weak and worthless compared to others and hate myself very much. It's like not eating draws an invisible bubble around me. Concentrating on food and calories takes my mind off the things in the outside world that bother me.