Hi Open Eyes

I do not know how to help with your financial problem but if I hear you need to take a brake and I am worry that if you will not do you will not ok to sort things and it will be worst and worst
Think what the worst could happen if you take a weekend free somewhere and after accept it. Ask somebody to help regarding the weekend work of care of your horses or something what you think somebody could do for you. And go away really for short time.
I do not know what weekend brake is the best one for you but anything what makes you to forget.
You need strength to anything which you decide.

Did you have a holiday in last time?