OpenEyes You are passionate about injustice. That's what I think. I suspect that fighting the injustice of what happened to you is even more important than getting the damages repaid, which would be very good too. You sure could use the compensation.

A survivor of PTSD has a super sense of knowing injustice, because there has been major violation. If it is PTSD from an act of nature, like an earthquake, even though that is an act of nature, it still seems so unfair. Unfair registers the same as injust, in our minds. When the PTSD is from abuse by a human, the sense of injustice is even clearer. I think it arouses more anger. So, it would not surprise me that someone recovering with PTSD would be very passionate about justice. That is a good thing to have come out of trauma. Many great people became passionate about justice because they suffered violation. So I think you are extra passionate about wanting justice, and I thing that is a virtue.

Also, you are pro-active. You are fighting for justice. The outcome is uncertain, because there will always be battles lost in that fight. Injustice is part of this world and will remain so. Some people think it will take God above coming in a dramatic way to stop injustice. I would agree that nothing short of God remaking the world can stop all injustice. Human effort can only have partial victories here and there. But we lose our dignity if we do not stand up for justice. Your victory is that you are standing up in your legal case. How it will turn out is beyond your control.

You and I and everyone we know will withstand the pain of injustice for as long as we are in this life. It is guaranteed. Keep your passion. Just know that the more passion you have for justice (and I wish more people had more of that) the more disappointment you are in for.

The very person who is supposed to "Champion Your Cause" may be falling way short of expectations. Poor legal representation is another form of injustice. It is sounding like you are stuck with this attorney, who maybe isn't all he might have been at one time. I'm sure he still likes winning. So let's hope that is some incentive to him.

Mostly I say balance passion with acceptance. This doesn't mean lay down and be a doormat. It means put your passion into the effort, as you have done, and then say "The outcome will be what it will be and I can not control that and my life goes on regardless of win or lose." With so much financial problems, it may feel like "My life doesn't go on . . . I can lose too much . . . and my life is demolished." But you won't be demolished, unless what you have is who you are. It is not. I've been through bankruptcy and might have to go through it again. If it ever comes to that for you, you can survive it. Your way of life might be drastically changed. Sometimes people truly can't survive too drastic a change, too drastic a loss. I say every day that, if I don't get a job soon, I can't survive the loss of maybe my apartment. That is not true. I can survive it. You, who is a harder worker than me, can survive great loss. That is what we fear. We fear losing everything. Not because we want stuff. What we have is what we need to live as we know how. So it is very threatening. When it gets real bad, I would recommend that you say, along with me, "I refuse to cower in fear like a whipped dog. I refuse to stay in the mindset of being threatened." That's how the PTSD started in the first place.

Does the technique work? Heck no, not all the time. I'm scared and mad. Mad that I lost my livelihood in a way that was unjust . . . someone using their power to crush me. But the technique works when I am at the end of my rope. It keeps me from having a complete nervous breakdown. I hope it might help you.