Thank you so much for the replies.

I have no family in the states that would help me to get on my feet to become independent in Europe. They would send me money to come home, but im not leaving my kids. I havent called the embassy because franklly all the times i have called before i never got a live human being on the phone. I guess i will try to give them a call tomorrow, but im not holding my breath.

I'm not scared of him in the way that he would physically hurt me, its more about being demeaned and bullied. Because of me asking for divorce he is getting help and realizes he has issues. I am very happy about that. On the other hand...for me, the damage is done and I as much as i would like to have a reconciled family...I smacked my face on the same wall a million times, im not about to do it again.

For me, there arent many places to go to stay close to my kids.