mel, I have been in that space before. I was in a long-term relationship and entered that zone. I wanted to go out and have sex with anyone. I really wasn't picky about it either. I ended up doing this four or five times. Never fully satisfied my craving. Just instant gratification. I was so ashamed of myself, for in my correct mind I would have never done it. I came to realize it was apart of the illness and I had nothing to be ashamed of, and neither do you. I avoid going out now when I get that way as to not make a bad choice I may regret later. I also try to distract myself with things around the house. It takes alot to remain focused. I am sorry you are experiencing this.