Thanks for replying PT and what's more, thanks for caring. I'm really sorry that you've suffered from ED for so long. I hope things getter for all of us ASAP.

And as for the fact that "If this is a coping mechanism all that will result from it is me feeling worse" (yes, I said fact!) I know. I've experienced it already

I'll try not to let it get too late. I'll try. I HAVE to try, but I'm not sure how much success I'll have. I simply cannot go for professional help. I'll have to manage on my own and that's not very easy

EDIT: and btw to PC