It's sad that you aren't able to go for professional help. I know I have FINALLY found wonderful professional help. The DBT group that my psychologist suggested my getting involved in is so wonderful at providing information on skills that really help is dealing with distress when it hits & learning about how to deal with emotions & recognize them in the first place has been so valuable in dealing with my weight loss eating issues (have been treated for anorexia in the hospital too many time already).

It is sad that you aren't able to take advantage of the wonderful therapy that is now available. Wish the first time in 1995 (when I needed help with stress & depression) & the second time in 2005 (when was dealing with a trauma) which turned into very serious anorexia , that they would have had this wonderful therapy available or known about by the poor psychologists that I was going to.

Maybe you can work through some of the online DBT information that is available & talk through some of it here....it's not the same but better than nothing & definitely better than allowing any ED to get control of your life.