Hi all, I'm new here (first post) but have been reading some threads on here, trying to relate to my situation. I would be grateful for any advice.

I have been seeing my pdoc for prescriptions and therapy since June, so probably for about 4 months now, and we connected pretty quickly. He invited me to his church (not in so many words, but kept mentioning it) plus he wanted to set up a group doing the kind of therapy that we are doing (EMDR & mindfulness techniques) that aren't available to some people. I thought that this was a great idea & said I would be happy to be involved if I could be of any help. He would give me a lift home after our sesions etc... then shortly after I completely freaked out... felt things wre moving to fast, and had a panic attack in session.

Since then he has been distant - we even had a session where he sat against the wall on the opposite side of the room and made me push my arms out whilst talking to him - he said my boundaries had been badly violated in the past. This all seems so strange. He has stopped offering me a lift (I think he's taking a step back) but he seemed really aggressive during our last session, said he felt sorry for my husband, said all sorts of things that really upset me, including that I push people away whenever I feel myself getting close to them (I'm not conscious of this).

I don't know what to do, I'm really scared of seeing him on Monday. Sorry for rattling on, I just needed to get this out. I'm scared that I might have jeopardized our relationship. We usually text each other, but I'm too scared to even do that now!