Ok... I am really having a hard time. I have been through a lot in the past year and the one thing that was stable in my life is going awry! I thought I was handling things until now but this feels like a last straw!

Long story -short - I am tired of dealing with changes! My job which I have been at for 18 years(!) and enjoyed - and is the only stable thing in my life to this point - has become a nightmare! Sudden changes in leadership and attitudes that are uncaring and insensitive and today I can honestly say inappropriate! I don't want to change jobs - I had planned to stay until I retire... and the response I get when I tried to talk about how I feel (which has always been an acceptable thing to do) I am informed that I am allowed to look for another job if I don't want to be here anymore! I have always been a good worker and high money maker for the company. I complain very little and ask for hardly anything. This is the first time I thought it important enough to speak up... and wham!

I have enough on my plate personally to keep me afloat and getting out of bed daily. I am trying hard not to give up and let whatever happens - happen... I am tired of struggling.... I am tired of "hard" and "dissappointments"..... etc.... in need of support and encouragement.