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Sep 22, 2011, 09:31 AM
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Member Since: Sep 2011
Posts: 1
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Not exactly sure if this is the best place to post this but well here it goes, I have been with my current boyfriend for about 8 months. We were best friends through a former relationship I was in for 6 years, he’s a great guy , was always there for me when my ex and I had a lot of issues .I’ve never felt this way about anyone or been this happy, my only regret is I didn’t see him as more than a friend before now. As stated before we’ve been close for many years this includes my freshmen and sophomore years of college which we partied together a lot like most kids our age. We’ve both graduated college and in our careers of choice and doing well in life; sounds too perfect right; there is unfortunately like with most things in life a catch. He’s still using cocaine even though the partying has now subsided, I didn’t think much of it when admitted he still did it occasionally (not that I approve of it at all!) But I figured here and there couldn’t hurt anything. Until recently I have noticed he has been doing it more and that he has got behind in some of his credit card bills, he keeps reassuring me he’s not addicted and that he’s actually cut back to half of what he was doing. I feel like he may be lying to me or at least in self denial. Back in our college days we would snort it ( yes I was a user at one time, never actually purchased it, really was just a once in a while thing for me, I guess that’s why I based his use on mine, I never craved it or even came close to being addicted) he has been shooting up for the past few months I can barely stand to be around him while he does this to himself, I love him SO much and I feel like this may lead to something really detrimental if it doesn’t stop. I’m disgusted with the thought of seeing him use it, it’s almost like watching someone cutting. He stays in the bathroom for hours at the time trying to catch his high, this usually occurs about ever month or 2 but recently he’s did it twice this week, I’m almost certain he probably does it more often than he lets me on to know. I’m the only one that knows of him doing this to himself…I don’t know what to do, should I tell someone? I’ve talk to him he keeps saying it’s his last time…isn’t that what they all say?! This is way too much to handle on my own. I’m happy he at least trust me enough to let me in but my god last time I checked I don’t have an S on my chest. I’m not sure if I should run from this or stay and try to help him. I’m on the verge of tears writing this I can’t stand the thought of something bad happening to him 
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