There is also a part of me that feels disgusted about seeming needy or childish or wanting comfort. And that keeps me from being able to open up those parts of me that need healing. And when i am able to let go of judgement and say what I need, i sometimes find out it is "too much," such as needing to email my t too often. I think that i end up being a burden to my t by needing so much contact, and then i feel ashamed and want to bury that needy part of myself that causes problems and embarrasses me.

Will i ever get past all the parts of me that prevent me from doing the "real" work in therapy?