I called the lady lawyer who's a friend of ours - not a best friend and more his friend. I left her a message and simple said " I understand if you can't tell me any info for privacy reasons...but I wanted to know if my husband asked you to draw up papers. If you can't tell me then I understand but would like at least a referral". She had her secretary call me to say she can't tell me anything because of privacy reasons. I feel irritated she didn't call me herself. I mean I've been to her house for dinner several times and she's been here - don't I at least deserve to be told that one one one? I don't mind that she can't tell me whether he asked her but at least call me personally.

I'm starting to think he probably didn't do anything and I'm just a fool for thinking it would finally happen. I can't call a lawyer myself because I need money for that. So here I am waiting yet again and I feel so completely irritated that my heads hurts. To cope I have to put all this on the back burner and start getting my mind in a better place. I feel like a fool for telling all of you and now this. I wouldn't be surprised if all this stress will cause some kind of terminal illness. Its hopeless for me and I feel like I'll never be at peace with this.