I agree with everyone! I too so some seriously scary stuff sometimes, I craigslist men, or woman, and pick who I want or how many. I'm married. My husband knows.Last time it went on for 2 months, then I felt pretty awful. But I was so happy then. You are not alone!!!! My personal opinion is, it's from sexual abuse, and I want to feel empowered.
Just personal opinion though. Take care!