I feel good about the session now. I think the EMDR helped!! I'm still skeptical, but I don't picture me on your couch in utter despair anymore! It almost disappeared like it was a dream, and I don't have those awful feelings!

I feel better about our relationship. Knowing I can hold your hand made such a difference to me. I can tolerate your taking it away slowly and I can still FEEL myself holding it NOW. That's the best gift of being in therapy with you. Holding your hand doesn't make me crazy; it helps me.

I know you wish that child or baby could be comforted and wouldn't look so sad. I think if she could cry then she'd be able to smile afterward. She felt so alone when no one could reach her. That's a clear image I had. I always say she's "in a heap" like Cinderella. Maybe like Little Sally Saucer in the nursery rhyme, too. I don't know where these images come from.

Sometimes we've been able to hold the baby or child. I don't know why we couldn't at the session. I also saw my mother holding out her arms when I had to leave her in Kindergarten. I never visualized that before. I could also see myself in her arms as well as hiding under her skirt.

I think that first separation was significant, though the incubator was really the first separation. I don't like separating from people. That's why I want to be with you forever, and yes, I know that's transference.

Thank you for being my T.