My therapist asked me why I stayed with my husband. I have been married for 31 years, wow, I talk to a guy and try to help him out and he is just about that age, LOL. Whoa, that really makes it so much longer when I think of that.

Anyway, my answer to him was because for the last almost 21 years, he was "TRYING". And yes, for 12 years he was kinda mean to me in odd ways that I couldn't understand. And that was because he was really struggling with the GUILT.
He didn't know wether to love me or hate me because of the twist GUILT does to the human brain. And there is still some residue of it as he watches me struggle with this PTSD and realizes his contribution to it. So it is very challenging for both of us and me in a way that I don't think he understands. I do love him and respect him for TRYING and working very hard too, he does work two jobs and he can't quite understand where this very strong lady that endured so much went. He doesn't understand how I could be so strong so many times and not now. And I am trying to understand that as well. This PTSD is a very difficult process in the brain to understand. I am TRYING and he has always been inpatient as a person to begin with but at least he "TRYS".

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