I don't have any advice except I feel your pain and that is what finally got me to get treatment. I was so irritable and irritated that I couldn't even stand to be with myself. I would take it out on my kids and husband. I'm in therapy and now on meds to help my anger. I try to walk away from people I can hurt or yell at when I feel the rage coming on. I deep breathe but sometimes that doesn't help. This board has been extremely helpful and supportive. I hope u find something that works for you. (((HUGS)))