You may perceive yourselve as demonic, but really I think the depression inside of you has fogged up the good in your life like it done so with me... You are what you think you are which is why thoughts can be very dangerous at times. Thoughts lead to feelings and feelings lead to actions, all you have to do is remember there are things worth living for though... Try and cheer up, I struggle with depression too but on the brighter side know that you're not alone and that there is hope~