BNLsMOM. That "compelled" feeling is a bit scary, and I'm sorry that's happening to you. I think it shows great insight on your part to recognize it and wonder on it. I think Ygrec23 is spot on in saying it's an indicator something's wrong. You certainly do have a lot on your plate right now. Interesting that it started when you had a spell of hypomania. Here's another thought. Reflex. It may be a touch of reflex seeping over from that time. (Reflex is something I personally need to be very aware of.) Ygrec (again, so right! ) about how it can seem so alluring while it's doing everything the opposite of what we want(!) When meds are right, it certainly does help in lessening inclination. It seems that your meds have been working pretty well for you (thinking back on your posts over time here...), so that brings us back to the indicator that something's wrong, and that it's probably an issue other than meds. I'm glad you're working with your T on this.
Oh, and in regards to weight? One of the things I like to remind myself of is alcohol = empty calories. Don't need those(!) (It isn't free either...)