Feeling like giving up on everything, the girl I married and loved has ditched me, we have signed for divorce, she was living seperately for last 2yrs, but I was hoping that she will come back to me. Mistakes were made from both sides, maybe I have behaved with her rudely in the first few days of marriage, as it was arranged. She keeps on reminding me of old things and not ready to forget and move on.
I have never loved any girl in my life or never had girlfriends, I am 34 now, I am still begging her to come back to me and have agreed to all her conditions, but she seems to be stuck in the past and says she cannot get back to me. I am really heartbroken and finding it really hard to forget her. Have started antidepressants about a week ago. But dont have the motivation anymore, I had invested so much time, money and energy into the relationship and she has left me high and dry, dont know what to do, hoping that she changes her mind.
I am really struggling to forget her, my mind says let her go but my heart says that she is the one for me and that I love her, we had some good times together. Just hoping and praying that someone puts some sense into her.

Just hanging on for the sake of my parents and sister, otherwise have thought of ending it all several times.