Why is it so hard for me to put myself in public situations? I don't mean public speaking or anything I like that...I just mean going out to meet friends, etc. I have a mother's group I belong to and I have such a hard time making myself go, even though I enjoy myself once I get there and like all the members that attend. In fact, I've made some good friends there. I feel like I want to isolate myself...stay in a little cocoon. I know that isolation is deadly for me and my depression, so why is it so hard for me to get out? I feel the same way about meeting friends for dinner; most every social event except church. That I don't have a problem with.
I would think I would look forward to getting out. Perhaps it's just a change in my routine that I fear. But what if my "routine" becomes unhealthy? How do I overcome this inertia and fulfill my social obligations without dread?