0kay, just had another major trigger and still don't have a T. I'm calling my pdoc today to see who she recommends. 2 people gunned down within 2 blocks of my house and I heard the gunshots so feel in a way I witnessed people having their lives so brutally taken. I'm in a town of 8000 and I moved from the big city after having to deal with gun crazy people where I lived. My coffee hangout had a guy come in and shoot 8 rounds, and then a restaurant owner was gunned down. These I had considered my safe places. So I move to a small town in New Mexico and the sounds of death are still echoing in my ear. I have a friend that listened to me talk thru all my emotions last night but today I wake up with horrible anxiety and freaking out. Why is this world so cruel? It's everywhere you go.