Sharon,

I can relate to everything you have said. I no longer have any family support. My fiance' is so lazy and he needs to be proactive in areas that only he can do. I do not have any friends that live near me. I only have two friends which I met on the Internet. I cannot stop crying and I wish I knew a way to give up. I have Major Depression and anxiety. I have PTSD from all the trauma in my life and I also have social anxiety so I am afraid of people. I am always getting hurt. I take medication that helps me from sinking into a deep unrelenting depression or a suicidal actions. But everytime I try to kill myself I get saved and several times I did not tell a soul I was doing it I just get found. I wonder why God always saves my life because my life could only be worse if I was in prison or homeless. What purpose do I have here?