Since seeing T last week after my yoga class I've been spending my time processing and getting up the courage to say hi how nice to see you . So today I got out of yoga class and she wasn't there .

She owes me nothing. I was just hoping to see her.

I go through the what ifs in my head: What if T feels awkward about bumping into me so she's not taking the class anymore? T really doesn't like me. T wants to keep her personal life personal and doesn't want to even risk bumping into me. T thinks I'm weird.

All these insecurities pop into my head and they are self destructive. I do miss her but I can't shake the feeling that she is glad to be 'done' with me. I know that's not the case but there's something inside of me saying that. She hasn't done anything or said anything ever to make me feel that way it's just me projecting something from within myself. It's like I'm falling into the pattern of expecting something bad. Something bad will happen. It's purely on an emotional level not an intellectual level.

Any thoughts? And thank you in advance for helping me process this.