Hi Starchild3- I have extreme anxiety and it controls my life as well. When I was 19 I had my first drink and thought "magical elixir where have you been all my life." I had finally found a coping mechanism. One that turned on me eventually and at 35 I entered detox and have been clean since 06/28/2011.

Before I had no control over it I felt the same way- it gave me energy to do things. And I have been on Ativan for 12 years and it had helped but not like my alcohol. Well, I can only speak for myself but my alcohol coping mechanism spiraled out of control and I now realize I can't drink ever again. I didn't mean for this to turn into my life story, sorry- just felt like I can so relate to where you are.

And damn- no pill for it. I wish you the best of luck and remember you're not alone.

Alissa