Rohag,you have conceded to the credence that your life is nearly useless.And further,that being"nearly useless" is your norm.Certainly an attitude which is self-derogatory ....especially if malingering,is very much a ruinous weight.I beg to differ with you,on your view that your life is useless,because in my experience,one does not ponder such a thing ......without a coexisting concern about their effect on others,and a degree of introspection.That in and of itself is a whispering hint of concern that one desires of doing better,contributing more,etc.Our self assessments are rather brash.....biased as well,in that, we cannot see ourselves from observers stance.Therefore some of us can be judge and jury toward ourselves,despite being unsuited for the task.Aside from which.... life is to accomplish more than being useful.It is for the evolution of our spirits within.(working on getting better,doing better).Personally,my focus of late has been very much leaning in on self improvement and taking inventory.I have always been a warden where my own faults lay.My perspective when posting 'life sentence' emanated from a stance of retrospection, in that, I see my life as something in which I am offered no choice.I must selfishly suck up the air around me,for to decide to 'end this' would be an ultimate act of selfishness because it would influence others,and leave a wake of victims in its path if I ended it.I cannot concur ,therefore, with the deep desire I have to cease breathing.Your contemplation of focus not being appropriately laid upon the concern of 'getting better' and choosing to shift it instead to concern with living the life that 'is' ,is an appropriate and functional focus shift.It is where your power lies.((((()))))....for you Rohag.