Mine are def. to find balance. I've found I often become the most manic when I know that there are very hard times up ahead that could lead me into depression. I even attempt to keep myself manic so I dont have to come back down to earth and face reality. Reality often scares me, so I let myself fall into mania so I can become bigger than reality and own in. The world becomes mine and I run the show. No one can touch me. Then the crash comes and I'm worse off than I was before