((((Mediator)))))....I am sorry that you are feeling very unfulfilled with the circumstances of your life.It hurts,I understand.What steps can you take to locate some peace?What would you be able to do in order to live away from those with whom you are sharing a residence? Save money? Look for a better housing situation that brought you more comfort?How could you actively put yourself in situations to begin to find people with whom you could develop a friendship?Go to a park,volunteer?Start conversations with people that you encounter?What can you do to expose yourself to different work?Are there programs you can take to learn new skills?You are aware of "Google" ?Type it into your computer,and enter the part of the world or country that you live in,and search for community programs offering training,or consider looking in the 'help wanted' for opportunities in your general area.To meet new people,go to park,or shopping areas,or places like the beach....to put yourself in a position to have a conversation with others.No sweet heart,your words did not make my situation worse,it helped me because I wanted to think about making you feel better,and could stop thinking of just myself.So .....thank you,and I mean that.Hug hug hug. ~W~