Hey ,

It's very difficult to be in the position were you feel suicide is the only way out. Please know that this is definately not the truth but your depression is blocking the ability to see the other options and have any energy to try them. I have been suicidal so I know how bleek it feels.

You are not selfish to express your feelings of deep sadness and desperation. No one wants to feel this way.

I am glad you see your T on Tuesday. Please let them know exactly how bad things are for you right now and the struggle the past 2 weeks have been. It may help to write down a list of the things that you feel are making life so difficult and take that with you also?

I hope you can keep yourself safe until you see your T on tuesday and are able to talk with them

***massive hugs****