The last few weeks I've just felt the worse and I just feel more and more worse everyday. I can't stand being here anymore. I feel so depressed and lonely that I could just burst. I've gone back to self harming again because I just don't know what else to do. I never really used to do it that often but now every day I think of it and I've just given in.

I've got no one to talk to at all. I've got a couple of internet friends I talk to sometimes but I can't keep dumping everything on them. They've got their own problems. My friends have all started uni and stuff now and they're making new friends and I just can't talk to them at all. I haven't seen my friends for weeks now anyway because they're so busy. I want help but I'm too scared. The last time I told an online friend a lot about how I was feeling it just freaked me out. I don't like people knowing so much about me it scares me so much.. I can't even imagine say how I feel aloud. I don't know what to do. I can't exactly spend all day in bed anymore.. but I'm too shy and scared to do anything else.