For me, it's been all of those. Previous existences actually play a large part in my being, and I have gotten a pretty good feel for a lot of them. It was especially strong when I was a child. Or at least, that's how I interpret it. But I would prefer the deeper interpretations than to just think my mind is 'wrong' and I need to be 'cured.' Granted, I would like enough of a respite from depression to explore other things which I think would be meaningful in life. But that doesn't mean I would ever want to lose my second sight completely. For all the pain, I think it's worth it.

That's something people often forget when it comes to treatment - particularly of the mentally ill. It's supposed to be an option that's there for us. But I have my wishes regarding lack of treatment as well, and those need to be respected. Modern medicine is there to offer options; not as a value system which should be adhered to in place of current cultural values. I prefer to be in charge of my 'treatment' and take personal responsibility for myself. So my spiritual exploration has to weigh in as something which is also important for me when fighting the problems associated with depression.