Yeah, that is the thing. I have been accused that I don't want to get better. But the definition of better is subjective. Yes, I need and want to learn to take the edge of at times when it is too hard. But i want to be able to benefit from my experience, because I believe there is a reason.

I don't want to lose myself in hopes of becoming "better".

and yes, lack of treatment should def be an option if person can manage. Advocacy groups should understand this.