You need to find out WHY you feel that way.....until you know the why, it's hard to fix what you are doing. Can't fix things until the base problem is worked through.

Why do you want to hurt yourself....what has happened in your life to make is to bad that you are so angry with yourself that you want to hurt you?........what has caused you to want to just disappear & to wish you were dead?

When you can start to work on the issues that are underlying the ED is really the symptom of what is lying very deep within your soul & hurting you.....it's coming out in the form of the ED. Hope you can get some very good therapy help with this.

I know in the eating disorders treatment center I was in for over a month back in 1995, they didn't understand that anorexia was just what I saw as passive SU.......which had NOTHING to do with any body image that they wanted to lay the problem on.

I am sorry that you are hurting so bad.....I understand the feeling & know how bad it feels & just makes the feeling of wanting to give up completely.

Hope you can find someone who can help you understand yourself & deal with the issues that are causing you to feel this way.

Gentle 's