Oh Googley,
I am so sad for you. I wish I had something hopeful and insightful for you but I am not feeling so hot myself. I just read your post and my heart goes out for you. I can relate when it feels like the universe is against you and you are getting kicked when you are already down. I am trying to be optomistic and hoping your t will be able to work something out with you. Hugs to you.