Thank you to everyone for caring and offering their advice.I've had few days in ward for sleep nothing else but I'm happy to say that I'm off on a happy high tangent and today managed to get out and go swimming,take dogs for a really good walk,mow the lawns and begin weeding the gardens.I'm sure as heck hoping that I can stave off the depression I really don't do very well with it.Yummmm to the milkshakes but I love banana and I treated myself to a lovley kingsize bar of fairtrade cocao chocolate very rich but yummy.love and hugs to everyone out thwere for caring