i lost weight by calorie counting, it took a year and a half, i am at a healthy weight and feel great. i did not deprive myself while losing weihgt, and even ate ice cream once a day. my calorie intake ranged a certain amount, i lifted when i learned that going too low is bad. 4 months ago i went to disney and my old habits started to creep in. and i ate everything i had chosen not to eat. its been 4 months, and though i dont look different my clothes are definitely a little snug.

the real problem i have with food is i spend mon-sat eating healthy,and then once a week, i just want a break from calorie counting (i feel better counting as i go over a bit when i dont) but on sundays i end up eating quite a few calories. i feel this awful desire to just eat and eat. part of it im sure is that i genuinely love sweets and food, i could easily eat a bag of candy.

when i was overweight, i had a bad habit of eating big portions. the biggest popcorn at the movies with lots of butter. half a bag/a bag of cookies, sometimes a big bag a chips, the biggest burger and fries. these habits have caused my parents to be unhealthy. my mom is obese has high blood pressure, diabetes type 2, cholesterol, heart probs, back problems from the weight, thankfully shes gotten a bit healthier. my dad had a heart attack and half his heart is dead.

i dont want to be unhealthy, but i dont want to go to the extreme of saying i will NEVER have anything unhealthy. how can i get rid of my habit of overeating once a week? how can i learn to be satisfied with having unhealthy things in smaller portions? i dont want to go back to my lose/gain weight cycle.

i have been really down and crying lately, i have issues with depression since i was a teen, i could easily spend months crying in my room and not go out for anything. my depression got better when i lost weight, but its come back full force. sometimes i look in the mirror, and i compare myself to other women, and i start crying cause i feel so fat and old. i cant go to a doctor as i dont have money.

how can i get better? i need some help, i feel so lost.