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I don't think it is really selfishness to be honest. It can be so hard to be a good person and it isn't aways rewarded so it can be really hard. I have to say that when I think about my dad, and I saw how others believed the worst in him, it really set me back. It really hurt to see that happen to him the way it did. And even though he was so strong so many times, I know that it hurt him too. And in the case of the old man, it was never really about the money, it was more about that man's true wishes and how he really wanted to return the favor to my dad and give my dad that monetary gift so if he ever needed medical help or had a need, he would have the means to pay for it somehow. Because the reality is that it really cost my dad to take all the time needed to help that man, where he could have been working and saving for his own retirement.

I honestly can't blame anyone for being hesitant about reaching out because it can truely be a way of putting one's self out there to be a victim and be abused and hurt in some way. And I honestly can see how I am in the same predicament and, I have to be honest, I am afraid of ending up the loser too. And it is so hard to wrap my brain around first seeing it and then being in such a similar situation myself. And I truely never saw it coming, it just came in the night, while I was sleeping, and it just took so much that I just can't wrap my brain around it. And to be in a situation where my attorney is truely losing it and being protected too, I just can't believe it.
I want so badly to have it be my own imagination, I truely do, but I do see the writing on the wall and I am really frightened.

I am not so sure that you are exhibiting selfishness. You may just be really trying to protect yourself. And it is truely a fine line.

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