For me, I know the grief would be huge if I left my T. I am very close to my T with a super strong bond and connection, but I am not dependent on him. So for better or worse, I'm gonna be tremendously sad when the day comes. PTSDcats, perhaps you can indentify the dependent behaviors and work to overcome those. I liked kaliope's suggestions, such as not contacting T between sessions for help with small decisions, etc.