((((((((Clouds_and_sun))))))))!

I'm sorry you're feeling lonely and sad about this aspect of your life.
Although I was in love before, I can appreciate how difficult and how painful this topic is. I'm of a similar age and although I had sometimes been in love, it's usually been completely hopeless with no prospect of anything developing. That's very painful, too.
I know what it feels like to long for someone being close to you and for being with someone and it's tough if this doesn't happen. People tell me that it doesn't matter when one meets someone who's right for one and that it will all be worth it then, but sometimes one doubts whether it will happen.

I'm trying hard not to think too much about it and hold on to all the good things in my life even if that excludes children (that has been a sore point this year after having to undergo surgery) and - for the moment - a partner. Try and do something that makes you really really happy or meet / talk to a good friend and things will at least for the moment feel better.

You are in my thoughts and please take care of yourself.

Many hugs to you,

Shadow-world